The Longing of my Soul

Jesus said: I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

When I first became a Christian, there was no immediate impact in my life. On the outside, I’m a regular church-goer, attending Bible studies and fellowshipping with other believers but on the inside, I’m still the same old me. For the longest time, there was a struggle in me. It’s like whoever I am with, then I shift to that kind of person that they are familiar with. It’s actually a split-personality disorder or what you call a “Jekyll-and-Hyde” syndrome. And here is what I discovered. When you mix the good with the bad, it’s like the bad almost always wins.

It’s easy to be a Christian. Nothing complex about it. The Bible says God sent His Son in this world and all we have to do is to confess our sins to God, repent and turn around from our old ways, and live for Jesus, who died for our sins and rose from the dead so that whoever believes in Him shall have eternal life.

But living like one is different. Here is the hard part if we will continue to fix our eyes on ourselves. Hence, the struggle. Because, we leave out Jesus in the equation and we try to live like Him based on our own performance. Why isn’t it a guarantee if we will base our success on ourselves and not let Jesus take control of our lives? It’s because:

“The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?” (Jeremiah 17:9)

Therefore, we need to depend our lives on Jesus. The Bible says: Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. – Hebrews 12:2

Jesus promised us that if we will seek Him, we will find Him.

But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul. (Deuteronomy 4:29)

This is the longing of my soul: that the grace of God be ever present in my life so that I can live a life that is pleasing to Him.

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. – 2 Corinthians 9:8

To live a life from victory is the ultimate prize any Christian can achieve. Because a victorious life in Christ would have prepared us to say in the end similar to what the Apostle Paul longed for at the end of his life:

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. (2 Timothy 4:7)


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